Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Little White Wagon???

After another lengthy absence, I am filled with trepidation about jumping back into the blog pool. Strange that I would feel so anxious, when this outlet has provided me with nothing but encouragement, friendship and a safe place for me to share...well, bits and pieces of everything. Still, I feel as if I must maintain an upbeat, lighthearted facade so as not to dump a bucket of rainwater on anyone who stumbles across this part of my world. I think I'll test the waters with my little toe and share that, because of impulsive choices I have made during the last few months, I find myself in a place of deep emotional and spiritual (dare I say it?) despair. Aside from not being able to eat or sleep regularly, my health is I'm grateful to not have to add "physical" to my list of woes. Much as I'd love to be able to point fingers elsewhere, I have to own the bad decisions I've made and start tackling the debris. Prayer is, of course, the best place to start. I must confess, however, I feel as if God is shaking his head woefully, whispering "You're on your own with this one, Little Girl. I sent you all the warning flags I could muster".

So, where does the little white wagon fit in to this? During one of my recent run-aways to the beach, it was parked under a tree by walkway over the sand dunes. I'd never seen a little white wagon. Red? Sure...plenty of them! This white one captured my attention...sitting there painted the "wrong" color, waiting to be filled...put to use, not sure what direction she would be pulled in, rusty & peeling, but still steady on her wheels.


  1. Hi Kimberly...Plese know that you are thought of often. Life is full of little turns and stumbles, but we always find our way. Just keep listening to 'that little voice' and try not to be too hard on yourself...
    Sending you a big HUG!

  2. Hey Dear, I hope everything is okay.. We all have made wrong choices in our lives.. It's what we learned from them, that's the key.. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you..

  3. Dearest Kimberly~
    I was so glad to see you Blogging again. I was wondering where you have been.

    Sending you lots of love,

  4. Hi Kimberly,

    I have not been blogging much this summer but I always like to pop over to see what you are up to. I don't think we need to be light hearted all the time. We are all human and make mistakes now and then. That's life. I know I have made many. Sometimes the recovery is quick and sometimes not.........but it comes. I hope you are feeling better and don't be hard on yourself. Have a "wonderful" day.

  5. Kim, everyone needs a break from blogging! It is a demanding task, to try to keep up, but we are all still here for you, no matter what!!!
    Hang in there sweetie, I pray you will want to come back after a good rest!!!
    No such thing as a bad decision, just a detour on the way to the right one!!! It's called life, and everyone's been there!!!
    Take time for you honey, your friends will always be here for you!!!
    Margaret B

  6. hello? it's been more than a month since you've posted! hello, hello, hello?

    xxoo love ya,